Can You Blame Him

Came to the end of the road
and yeah it's dark
I'm lost without a spark
Friends and family disappeared
Lost grace, no despair
Was bubbling for some years
Came up off a thing or two
White moving swiftly
Snitches singing like some angles
No, I aint no angle
But fame is what came duke
Lexus, Rovers, and big chains
Is what a nigga came to
Bitches, they all humpin'
Trying to feed off of something
Name ring bells
Touch down in every cell
From Water Town to Fort Dix
Name hold weight like bricks
Had the whole club sippin' on bottles
While partying with models
They all beggin' to be my rider boo
But no, I ride with boo....
45 is what I call her
Leave hollows inside of you
In and out of town
They tellin' me to slow down
But how can a nigga clown
When his face is on frown?
So forget that!
This money is how I get back
At all them nights
And all them days
A nigga was wishing
He would've been paid
So say....
Do yourself a favor,
Try to walk in my shoes
Before they where Mauri gators!

One In The Same

When rich people lose money they go crazy,
but when poor people get money they go crazy!

Blinded By The Signs

Trying to find real souls
Because there's not many left!
Speak upon something real,
And an frown impedes upon their chest.
Not understanding the ways of an analyst....
Just of the unknowledgeable
Stuck in the pride of ignorance,
And always susceptible to failure
Why must we not see,
What's upon our paths?
Even when times show us signs,
We continue with laughs!
9/16/08

Teach Me English & I'll Teach You Math

Teach me how to talk to you and what to say
Teach me so I'll want more and I'll want to stay
Teach me words that will brighten up your eyes
Teach me words that will have me laying between your thighs!
Teach me proper words that will lead to a cuddle
Teach me words that won't lead to a rebuttal
Teach me English so I can teach you math
Teach me English so our conversations will last....
I'll teach you math so you'll see how we could become 1
I'll let you see that my burning passion is the only thing = to the sun
I'll teach you math so you could see how we could multiply
I'll teach you math to show you that a couple equals you & I
I'll teach you math to show you how we could divide
I'll teach you math to show you there's nothing greater than
I'll teach you math to show you how we make up 100 percent!
8/22/08

Silent Cries

I've lost my sanity but yet sane
Don't know how to cry,
I feel no pain!
Weather tear drops or rain
There disposed of and drained
But once I'm disposed of,
Please don't let me come again!
This is my plea
A cry for rescue
You can say what you want,
But who are you?
9/8/08

Lost Wars

I'm a soldier beyond warrior words
It sounds absurd,
But nouns or verbs can't describe me in a word!
I was brought fourth to come back
Now I'm here, but how should I act?
Caught up among physical things
Even though I'm a spiritual being
My ways have took over my spirit again
So now my souls yearns to earn knowledge,
But I continue to rob and abolish it
And think my ways will change,
but my ways has took over my spirit again!
8/11/08

I Gave My Love Away

I gave my love to her
but she said she couldn't stay
She said she was on the run
And had to give my love away
So now my heart pumps
But blood is not the factor
Just tears of rejection
And my face has no more laughter!
So the deciding factor is
Where do I go from here?
My love has depreciated
Now it's turned to fears!
9/8/08

If She Only Knew

If she only knew what she could do
What she could have
It's all in her grasp!
Smile because she makes me laugh.......
Don't want to let her go
She's the greatest fad.
Need her in my life so that pressure won't bust pipes
Need her in my life to eventual be my wife!
All I want to do is to make passionate love to you,
kiss you from head to toe
Give you some X and O's.
Life has no meaning if your not in it
Different from the rest
Which makes you authentic.
When your heart beats
Mines beats too
If we're together,
God will see us through!
8/9/08

Birth Defect

I was doom as the birth of a man, to stand as I stand! As I walk among the plains of hell, I still exist, as others has crossed over no more relying on the conscious thoughts of life or death. I Will soon be a replica of a distinct mannerism that once evolved. So in regards to my departure from this earth, I will take nothing with me, but I will leave behind the things that are fictitious! Null and void are the feeling I get from my conscious regarding my physical being.
8/1/08

Brain Matter, No More Thoughts

Thoughts of a predicate
It's felons you never get!
Tight as a tourniquet
The memories I'll never forget
Moms didn't raise me right
How I'm going to win this fight?
I cross on a green light
Plight all in my site
Will I make it through the night?
Insight don't make you bright
Unless you act on it
Blessed in a prayers moment!

Pot To Piss In

Living how I want to live
Giving what I want to give
Speaking what I haven't spoke
Saying quotes you haven't noted!
Being promoted is never a crime
Bending my back,
With my own spine....
Living my grind freely in mind
Don't give me yours,
I have mines!!!!

For Your Father

We're all dying slowly day by day,
Just remember to say your grace!
Soon we'll all be on our way,
To a place where we were meant to stay.
A place where souls lie and wait,
A place we all will see one day!
DEDICATED TO LISA BONAPARTE

My Load I bear

I don't know how much more I could take....
It's been 25 years and I still haven't break,
but I'm starting to shake!
Lord help me awake!
To better and brighter days
I'm tired of being impoverished,
I'm stuck in these ways.
I'm feeling defeated,
confused,
and all alone....
Wonder what it's going to be like when you call me home?
Because here we don't stay,
So I'm living for today wishing my temporary stay ends okay!

It's Not Always Greener On The Other Side

The fascination of struggle, and how you can overcome it....... The depletion of fame, and how you went down the drain!

Here & Now

Thinking about my pass,
And how I made it last....
But now I'm in the future,
It's going to take some getting use to!

Destructive Path

Only here for a stay,
And so you made a way,
But that way wasn't clear,
And so my end was near!

Mirror

When I look in the mirror,
Do I see what you see,
Or what I see?
Is it reflecting what I think I look like,
Or what I actually look like?
We all interpret things differently,
So we all see things differently!
I see what the mirror shows,
But you see what the mirror sees.......

Help Me Find My Way

Help me find my way along,
for I am stuck as I read these cherish able palms.
The words that are quoted helps me keep my life noted,
but in times that are hard,
please help me keep focused.
For it's easy to lose track
and get caught up in the world's traps
but once I move on there's no looking back!
I shall stand alone and walk on my own,
as a man that's settled and ready to stand before your throne.
For what ever reason I'm not ready to face Armageddon,
then please spare my life
for I have sacrifice my heart to Christ....
Help me find my way!

I Never Had A Chance

I never had a chance, to see what you saw
I never had a chance, to travel oh so far
I never had a chance, to feel how you felt
I never had a chance, to live in good health

I never had a chance, to buy what you bought
I never had a chance, to to learn what thought
I never had a chance, to grow how you grew
I never had a chance, to be me but live like you!

Lessons

The mediocrities of a man,
similar to standing in quicksand.
The simplicity of love,
pure as whiteness on a dove.
Is anyone aware?
How dare we live without living...
Give thanks before the giving.....
You bare your father's heart
so wear it on your sleeve.
Use it as a garment of expression
Learn your lessons, even as an adolescent.
Give without giving up
and receive without greed
And please believe,
He's the only blessing you'll ever need!

Still Can't Believe Your Dead!

The replays of horror reminiscing in my head,
still can't believe you're dead!
How you laid in your bed with a pillow over your head,
Still can't believe you're dead!
One shot's all it took as your body's life force was took,
still can't believe your dead!
Dream about you nightly how you departed me so early,
still can't believe your dead!
As the days goes on and all I could do is cherish you in these poems,
still can't believe your dead!
Till the day we meet again please rest in peace my friend,
still can't believe you're dead!
*R.I.P. Nashan Amos Platt*

Life's Crazy

The zone I'm in is Twilight my friend,
Mixed feelings and thoughts caught up within.
Never meant for anything bad to happen,
all I ever wanted was pure satisfaction.
But my life is on a pace that's never relaxing,
hope to god it doesn't end in distasteful fashion!
Leave everything behind for a piece of mind,
knowledgeable that I'm not dumb,
hear that I'm not deaf,
but am certainly blind!

About Me

To know me is to love me,
I live like no one is above me!
Rock my heart proudly
and wear it on my sleeve.
But believe it or not,
I don't know how to grieve.
Was made to be warm blooded
soley for this cold world,
but all I ask of god
Is to bless me with a little girl.

I'm Not Perfect!

There's no way....
To live on this earth without sinning,
There's not one day!
Don't judge me for my wrongs,
Judge me for my rights,
My rights to be wrong
But making it right!
You look at the tats,
And automatically judge,
But look at the facts,
My surroundings is what it caused it to be!
Now everyone handles their situation differently,
But my different is no different from yours,
We just handle that differently!
You call me out my name,
By calling me a thug,
But look at what you're doing,
You're practising hated,
Not love!
Love for a person,
That's crying out for help,
Then you say you believe in God,
But the presence isn't felt!